Saturday, October 11, 2014

Yoga Pursuit

September 10, 2014

The perpetrators of this hideous war crime are increasing the severity of their attacks to the point where I feel that I'm mentally deteriorating; it seems that they are attempting to take full control over my mind. The targeting has left me feeling mentally inept before, which is why I've decided to take some countermeasures against it. One such countermeasure is the very act of taking up Yoga. A friend of mine (now an ex-friend over a phone argument) had advised me to try this activity. I have experienced delay in this sort of pursuit due to lack of time. I did, however, recently manage to allocate time for Yoga exercises by changing my sleep/wake schedule. The targeting has affected my sleep to the point of only obtaining four hours at the most. This left me no choice, but to set my bedtime four hours prior to the time I plan to wake. This, for awhile, had been midnight with my awakening at four. I would typically spend that time until five 'o clock getting ready for work. Because of this I decided to awaken at three instead, allowing time for both Yoga sessions and getting ready for work. This infuriated the parasitical perpetrators a great deal especially since Yoga, even at the beginner's level, had already started generating some results for me in terms of increased mental clarity. The perpetrators responded to my change of lifestyle by cutting my sleep time back to two hours in hope that I would just stay in bed until three to take their electronic abuse. The other goal is aimed at getting me too mentally exhausted to continue in my Yoga pursuit. They did have me partially to that level this morning on the tenth day of September 2014. I had been performing the Yoga exercises under the guidance of instructional DVDs that I rented at my local library until I bought a copy of my own. The DVD that I purchased bears a title known as The Practical Power of Yoga, a DVD featuring an instructor by the name of Rodney Yee alongside his wife, Colleen Saidman. This was the DVD I felt best for beginners out of all the others I had rented and watched. I was doing pretty well at following the instruction given in the DVD until the perpetrators started attacking me as I was performing the exercises. Whenever Yee and Saidman gave instructions to the audience/students, I would fall into a trance or into a state of confusion. There were even instances when I had to go back and rewind to obtain full comprehension. I would still experience confusion or mesmerism in spite of the repeat. The trance would take the form of my making internal commentary about the oppression occurring against me or regarding  pre-targeting hostilities. There was also some mild fatigue as I attempted to perform and function, but not nearly as bad as what took place at the gym yesterday.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Set-Up or Psy-Op?

October 28, 2013

I sat in the conference room at work beginning at 10:30 AM to watch a safety presentation alongside my co-workers. At the beginning an Executive Manager whom I shall call Mitch Brussel told us that we would be watching a video then added: "Don't fall asleep; fall asleep, and you'll get to go home for free and never come back." One of my co-workers replied: "Alright, does that mean we get an hour [off]?" I interpreted Mitch's statement as implying that he would fire anyone he catches falling asleep. The very first thought to come to mind was "oh, shit," for I knew all too well that my perpetrators like to put me under vertigo to the point of unconsciousness almost every time I watch a video. I prepared myself for the attack. It was five minutes into the video when I felt my eyes go through a mildly pulsing sensation. I felt myself reaching the peak of unconciousness, but fought by all means to keep myself alert. I tried keeping my eyes to their widest to find that it wasn't working. I then remembered hearing in a documentary several years ago about pain being a good stimulant. This statement was made in a History Channel documentary that aired during my television watching days, regarding the war in Vietnam. I pressed my knuckle to my temple, hoping to cause enough pain to alleviate the fatigue. The perps continued trying to put me under. The whole cycle continued throughout the video, but I managed to stay awake to the end in spite of the whole ordeal. I did notice at one point that I was the person Mitch seemed to watch most often as if I were the one he would most expect to fall asleep. I also happened to be the person of whom Mitch gave a strange grimace at the end of the presentation. I wondered at first if it was an attempt to set me up, but the thought later occurred to me that they still could have put me under if they wanted to accomplish such feat badly enough even in spite of my best efforts to stay awake, so I am therefore, concluding that it was in deed a psychological operation (psy-op) to get under my skin. The most nerving psy-ops wielded against me do often end with strange grimaces.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Facebook Tampering

June 20, 2014

I had arisen from bed this morning following a conversation I had with an online friend of mine (also a TI), feeling groggy as hell. I decided to go back to bed for another hour to rest. I departed from bed, heading toward the pot of coffee that I had already set  to brew the previous night. I had my first cup then took out a pot to cook some oatmeal. I made the oatmeal using a combination consisting of a small amount of coconut milk I had leftover, water, and oats; I heated up the first two in the pot. I proceeded to wash dishes as I waited for the mixture to boil. I poured in the oats as I noticed the first sign of the mixture boiling. I stirred the oats into the mixture and turned down the heat, continuing to wash dishes afterward. I turned off the heat after allowing the mixture to boil then retrieved my Kindle Fire. I sat at the coffee table to check my e-mail and Facebook accounts. I came across a post that was made to one of my subscribed groups known as Pennsylvania Against The New World Orde (PANWO). This post was a link to a video of a speech made by a Tea Party activist by the name of Andrew Breitbart. The description read thay this was the speech that got him assinated by Obama. I had never heard of this Breitbart nor his death, so I took it upon myself to do some research on him. I went to a search engine to type in his name. I found some hits with the first one being a Wikipedia article baring his full name along with the dates of his birth and death. I clicked on that link and began reading the article. I started with his life story and skipped a few sections to read about his death. The article stated that he mysteriously collapsed. The coroner ruled that he died of heart failure. I wondered to myself how a man of forty-three dies of heart failure. The article also stated that some people believe that he was poisoned with drugs or other chemicals, but coroner found no such substance in his system. With these circumstances, the first thing to come to mind was "directed energy weapon." I then proceeded to go to other posts within the PANWO group. I came across one regarding a video featuring featuring clips of Joe Biden, Barrack Obama, and George Bush, Sr. glamourizing the idea of a New World Order. I clicked the link to reach the video on YouTube. I went back to Facebook after I had finished watching to comment on the video. When I finished typing and hit the comment button, my screen converted to a different thread with my comment posted there instead.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

8-Ball Shenanigans

February 18, 2014

 I was playing a game of 8-Ball Pool on my Kindle Fire after returning home from the library. The whole playing experience seemed smooth at first, but took a downward turn over half an hour later. I started the game in the Offline Practice mode, playing three matches, which allowed me to get the feel for the game after spending several days away from the application. Feeling a sense of confidence, I began to play online with a real person. I entered the one-on-one section where my opponents are typically selected at random. I won the first match and lost the second. Experience points are typically scored in both victory and defeat, but the former grants more of them. I earned one-hundred seventy-five for winning and only thirty-five just for playing the second match and losing. The thirty-five points provided me with enough on my score tab to achieve advancement to the next level. I continued playing electronic pool, squaring off against additional opponents. Something strange started happening during the third match; my connection to the game's server started to freeze. This was evident when I saw a message that said, "Waiting for server response." The server reconnected a minute later in time for me to find that my turn had expired. From there on, I started experiencing additional hacking that took the form of cue repositioning, strike delays, and additional server freezes. I became increasingly tense as the hacking continued. I started ranting silently, threats to the perpetrators. I threatened to stay up until 1:00 AM instead of my normal midnight bedtime (the perps usually try to get me to go to sleep early, so I can get tortured before they sedate me while subsequently waking me early to keep me from going back to sleep) and get involved with activism in ways that include spreading fliers. I then started thinking to myself that the threat of going to bed later might not be effective. I also began to wonder if that was even a wise move to make for my health. I kept losing additional matches due to perpetrator interference, but could care less; for I was way too steadfast to quit. They eventually relented in their cyber attacks, but this did little to stop the tension that arose as a consequence thereof; by then, I had transformed into a nervous, shivering wreck. I was unable to concentrate as I continued playing for an additional amount of time, making the decision to quit the game a few minutes later.

Closing Remarks

 I, at times, have found myself getting way too addicted to 8-Ball Pool (controlling my urges to play electronic games was never one of my strongpoints; although, this has greatly improved since the beginning of the awakened stages of my targeting), but have found success at reducing the game playing frequency since the night of this incident, for it had given me a reminder that tackling my targeting problem should be my main subject of interest. It had reminded me that more priority should be given to activities in association with my plight even if it is something as modest as research, information gathering, or fighting their efforts to manipulate me into living a sedentary lifestyle; I therefore, have started limiting myself to no more than two matches a day when playing the game. If I do play any electronic game in excess, I will be sure they're at least games that are designed to exercise the brain rather than nullify it.

I have heard of other Targeted Individuals (TI) playing highly addictive electronic games (more so than the pool game for Kindle Fire) to cope with their targeting, and this is a vice of which I would certainly not recommend. Just as drugs, television, and dare I say religion, electronic gaming is also a form of escapism that represses negative emotions rather than venting them. This type of practice could, in the long-term, do more harm to one's own mental/emotional health than good. Any number of things can happen to an individual once he/she had bottled up more anger than he/she can handle resulting in effects such as a nervous breakdown or violent/reckless behavior. If this type of effect does not occur then the mind could also go into a state of apathy where a person may see little or no incentive to do anything about his/her targeting. The type of vices I would recommend are those that vent rage in a more controlled and constructive manner; examples of such vices would be writing a detailed fantasy of malicious things happening to one or more perpetrators (wouldn't recommend publication), communicating to a supportive and trusted friend about one's plight---this will most likely be another TI, posting details about one's targeting to a social networking forum or sub-forum for TIs---if one trusts such sites, and blogging about one's own hardships. When blogging, it is best to write notes on as much perp activity as one can remember beforehand. Waiting for too long then blogging from scratch will very likely cause a person to experience trouble in recalling details while trying to write a blog entry; I speak of this from experience.Being able to recall one's own experiences with at least ninety percent accuracy is essential when trying to expose what is happening.